Last night I grabbed a random sketchbook off the shelf to jot down an idea for a painting. Oddly enough, the very first page was blank, but the rest were filled. I flipped through to see what from my past might fill the other pages. The second half was from the end of 2010, when my life as I knew it disintegrated before my eyes and scattered in broken pieces all around me.
I read through these words I had penned in the midst of suffocating despair and heartbreak... and I REMEMBERED the pain... but for the first time in four years, I didn't RELIVE it. And this realization has brought me such a calming peace and joy today... I know I still have a long way to go (can we say committmentaphobia, anyone?) but I am finally on my way through to the other side.
One of my goals for this year is to lay that past peacefully to rest and move on - whole and healthy. I am so happy to realize that I am well on my way to doing just that! So, here's to new beginnings, second (third, and even fourth) chances, letting go, breathing through the pain and the pieces, and believing in the beauty of another day ahead.
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